Is this lke ,, NORMAL ?!,!?

sorry , but idk if this is normal. when i go to bed at nite , nothing metal can be touching anything. at all. i have these stupid rituals because i have an intense, irrational fear of having a fire, or never waking up because i died in a fire while i was sleeping. is this normal? is it also normal to feel so panicy and suicidal if i dont perform these rituals ? PLEASE dont juge me.